* wish upon the star *

Feeling: exhausted *collapses*
Latest indulgence: being online
Current frustration: catching up on everything
Craving: food!
I want: to stop feeling guilty
Last Movie Seen: this documentary on the Jesuit who died in Cambodia... really depressing stuff
Flipping through: all my homework stuff
Project: same-old, same-old
Song I'm Singing: One So The World May Be One

Am feeling completely exhausted. I got home at around 9:20 PM already from school. 'Twas the last day of the Sons and Daughters Congress. The experience was really different and I think I'm appreciating it a little later than I'm supposed to. Feel kinda bad 'bout it... Don't want to talk about it though... at least, not here.

It was wonderful how I was able to do things that I normally don't do. For example, I don't think I've ever had as many pictures taken in a day. I normally don't like being in pictures, but I guess that's naturally been changing even before the Congress, so it doesn't count. Still, I actually DANCED (Triccie, you're probably laughing if you're reading this) to the songs and stuff without feeling too self-conscious. I DREW and it didn't come out awful, like it does normally. I talked to other Povedans without feeling whatever reserve that I normally have around schoolmates. It's great! *grins*

Miss the people in school. Will get my report card on Monday. I feel like I'm so behind on the schoolwork. Pressured, even. Shit. I don't like missing this much school.

making your wish come true at 24.1.03

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* Monday, January 20 *

Feeling: bored
Latest indulgence: eating more food than I should
Current frustration: SCHOOL!
Craving: a looong and wonderful 1x2 fanfic
Obsessed with: nothing
I want: someone to do all my work for me. Hah. Fat chance of that happening.
Last Movie Seen: Growing Up Brady
Flipping through: nothing
Project: schoolwork; Anna's story

Finally found it, after many years...

Do Not Go Gently into that Good Night
by Dylan Thomas

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.

Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Dedicated to whoever feels helpless right now... perhaps dedicated to me as well...

making your wish come true at 20.1.03

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* Friday, January 17 *

Feeling: restless
Latest indulgence: pigging out with friends, instead of doing IP
Current frustration: I.W.; English speeches; lack of funds
Craving: CPK's Caramel Pecan Sundae
Obsessed with: fanfiction
I want: to watch The Two Towers again
Last Movie Seen: Dangerous Minds, after The Two Towers
Flipping through: the same books
Project: Anna's story

Just felt like blogging... Nothing to say though. Oh well, maybe some other time...

Oh, before I forget, HI TRICCIE!!! Thanks for visiting!

making your wish come true at 17.1.03

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* Thursday, January 9 *

Feeling: happy, but tired
Latest indulgence: going online, spending money on food
Current frustration: I.W.
Craving: to sing with my old voice
Obsessed with: forming a band (?)
I want: to sleep
Last Movie Seen: Can't remember... Sister Act II?
Flipping through: The Fellowship of the Ring, The Two Towers, The Return of the King
Project: just finished my country study

First things first, happy New Year everyone!!! This is a new layout for the new year and my first blog entry since November. It's long-overdue that my little voice is heard, lest you begin to think me mute, or worse - blog dead! *collective gasp is heard* Ahahahaha!

Anyway, I'd like to take a moment to thank everyone who helped me with my country study. Jaq, thanks for being there, bugging me to do my country study, but still talking to me when I didn't feel like doing it, and for putting up with my questions which you forgot the answers to. Issa and Mon-chan, thank you so very much with the research you so generously provided. I doubt I would have been able to finish it as quickly as I did, without your help. I would also like to thank Kat, who helped me with my analysis and Anna for being there to talk to and for supplying advice.

Moving on, the holidays were a little boring. Caroling was really fun though, felt strangely homesick at first, but I began to enjoy it totally as it went on. The seniors we were with provided me with some insight on how it would be like for me when I got to fourth year. Really interesting stuff. Even crying in the Sison home is something I smile about. Saw Elea in Megamall on the 20th of December at the C3Con. December 31st was wonderful though... *smiles dreamily*

Being back in school is... different after two weeks of vacation. The fun we have now seems more... frenetic? than it used to be... Almost like we're making up for the two weeks we weren't together.

Still have a horrid cough, but it's not as bad as it was in the beginning. My throat doesn't hurt anymore at least, and I don't feel like throwing up after every cough. My voice is still low, rough, gravelly and broken - I do not like this one bit. I can't wait to have my normal voice back. Maybe then I won't feel so conscious about reciting in class.

More soon. I'll fix the flow of my thoughts next time.

making your wish come true at 9.1.03

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