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* Sunday, November 30 * Well. Here I am again. Hehe! :D
November's been one hell of a month! Lots of stuff. Hehe, I think I managed to grow up a lot in this one month. So I'm sixteen. :) It was weird to answer that when Krystle and JM (from KNP Cotillion) asked me how old I was. It felt so strange. But in a good way.
I'm sixteen. Beautiful, beautiful, sixteen. :)
I feel like my life's coming back together again. * Saturday, November 29 * I've spent most of today inside the van. I ended up just walking home.
I saw a cat that got runover on the street. What a mess.
Never thought there'd be a time when I'd feel so much like that cat and simultaneously just want to be the freaking cat. Damn.
Roadkill...
Just a thought. * Thursday, November 27 * Listening to : Sixteen Candles - Sponge
Okay, so after the horrific event that was my birthday... Here I am. As I have told most of you who asked, my sixteenth birthday was definitely the worst. I swear... I don't think I ever cried that many times on my birthday. Anyway, I'm trying to move on. Breathe in, breathe out - keep living life, right?
Today and yesterday have been pretty good days. Oh. Except the fact that one of my batch mates just killed herself recently. No joke. It hasn't fully hit me yet though. Everyone's in this haze of shock and disbelief. Me included. I'm slowly starting to get affected though... But other than that. Today was a good day. As was yesterday. Hehe.
Thanks go to the Claret boys for their company yesterday.
Thanks go to Juli, Niann, and Cara.
Thanks go to Perry.
Thanks go to Sir JP, the coolest SocSci teacher I've had the experience to know.
Thanks go to my class.
Thanks go to God.
I'll leave with you a picture of four of the most beautiful girls in the world.
I'm so lucky for the people around me. I love you all. * Saturday, November 22 * Whoa, haven’t updated in the longest time. Hehe, now I have loads to make kwento.
Friday:
We didn’t have much scheduled for Friday. Just IW, the Mascarda play and Chem. Got hella pissed when they announced that we had to stay in school until four, because I told my mom that I would be going home at 11:35. Things got mucked up then, because I planned to do a lot in the span of time between 11:35 and 3:00, which was when I was supposed to return to the fair for PULSE Part I. I had a sort-of breakdown, because I just really wanted to go home, and I was having a hard time reaching my mom, and I wasn’t sure if I was still going to be allowed to the concert. I ended up crying twice. This is what happens when you mix stress, birthday anxiety, and feminine cycles. (Looking back, I’ve been on hyper bitch mode for the past week. Sorry to those I’ve offended.) Anyway, I got that sorted out, and cleared my head as well as I could. Then I spent the rest of the day with Anna and Yla. We had fun hanging out.
I went through two wardrobe changes in the span of the day. That’s three different outfits. Hehe, I came to school in long khaki shorts, my LnK homevisit rubber shoes, and a plain loose forest green V-neck. Really blah – it was Christa the Tamad. Come recess, I decided to join Ericka and Niann, and put on one of the jerseys I brought for Niann’s gag. So off came the V-neck, on comes a blue-green Miami Dolphins football jersey. I removed my glasses too, so I really looked like a boy. I became Christa “Abdul-Jabbar” the Guapo Guy. I’m not making this up. I really looked like a guy. I saw Mimi’s barkada of twizzletops really point and look at me. I walked like one pa kasi. The kada was cheering when I walked in. [Hehe, from my former “no-boys-but-one-pseudo-ex-girlfriend” status, I gained around… nine (?) new “girlfriends.” Haha! So now I have 10 in all! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!] Then at around four, the weather got t me, and I was itching to change. I went to Galle to charge my phone, because my battery was dead, and bought a pair of pretty dangling earrings. When I went back inside the school, I got a nice white tee for P50 and changed. I looked like a girl again. Hehe. People kept commenting on my metamorphosis. It was funny. I had fun dressing up.
The variety show concert wasn’t bad. Here’s some of the bands that played.
Hard Court performed also. They were so galeng! Grabe, I wanted to dance after. Alexi’s so good at dancing!!! Wah! I wish I could dance like that. They also danced with Xavier’s dance troupe and that was okay. I liked the contrast, pero hindi ganun ka cohesive sila as a group. Dancers from Don Bosco also performed. Ang galeng ng routine nila. Yung props nila basketball. I got short clip of them with my digicam, but I don’t get the super galeng parts. Oh well.
Chino and I left the school at around 11:20, we got home at 11:30, but they didn’t open the gat until 11:50. We waited outside our house for 20 minutes. I was so tired pa naman. I got to sleep at around one na. I was in school for a good 17 hours of the day.
Saturday:
I didn’t go to school until around two. I got caught by the makeover booth. Whatever. It wasn’t so embarrassing. I even got picture of myself for posterity’s sake. I met up with Bobbie and we hung out. It was fun and strange. She met my friends, and pronounced the Lechugas “scary.” I was proud. I saw a lot of people. It’s like yesterday was rehash day or something. You know, just a little reminder of my year being fifteen before I turn sixteen. First, Bobbie and I saw The Plastic Guy, who I think didn’t recognize me without my glasses, but kept on looking at me anyway, probably because I looked familiar. I didn’t come up to him na, even though we passed by him around three times (not on purpose, mind you). It would’ve been odd. Then I saw some other people from my group at the interaction, notably Element 103 *coughhotbutnotwholesomecough* and Jarryd, who met Lechugas and hung out wth them for the rest of the fair. (Can I just note that I’ve become immune to 103? *biggrin*) We also saw Joseph Yeo – reminded me of the lovely UAAP days. He is tall. But he isn’t that good-looking to me anymore. Hehe, no more chinitos! During PULSE Part II, the singer of Shading Circles remarkably resembled my last serious crush. It was so weird. Same hair, same look when performing… Grabe. But he sings really well. Ang galling! I’m smitten with him and the Ephesus guy.
I left the concert really early though. I didn’t even get to catch Corner Drive. :c That sucked. I was really bummed about it. That’s why I couldn’t appreciate Shading Circles – they were the band performing before Corner Drive. I feel like such a flake tuloy. Oh well… I went with my parents to Malabon to see the person who would be making my prom dress. She’ll send over the fabric swatches on Monday maybe.
Used the PC for a while after I got home, but I got disconnected from the Internet kaagad. So I called up Raph. We talked for a short while, until my dad made me get off the phone to sleep. Weh.
All in all, it’s been a tiring weekend, and today’s still not over.
And a belated greeting:
* Friday, November 14 * IT’s About Time Variety Show/Concert Schedule:
November 21, 2003 – Variety Show
November 22, 2003 – PULSE concert
* Wednesday, November 12 * Sorry if I've been shallow.
I'm just out of it.
Tell me if you want me to post the band schedule for the fair concerts. * Tuesday, November 11 * Feeling: down and pissed
Latest indulgence: donuts and leche flan Craving: comfort Obsessed with: my Angel of the Day: everyone, in general I went prom dress-tela shopping with my mom today at Megamall. We have a concrete idea of what my dress'll look like now. It's really girly, really old-fashioned, but I hope it turns out beautifully. We got some good swatches of lace and some other cloth, I can't remember what.
I also went digicam canvassing. I'm so excited. My mom said it really would be MY camera. Whee!!! I'm sooo excited!
But in other news... I'm just not meant to turn sixteen. All my plans are being shot to hell. Pweh... Who cares anymore? I'm sick of it. I don't want to turn sixteen. Screw it. I don't want to celebrate at all. Crap.
Oh, and go to the Poveda fair. Support Poveda. * Saturday, November 8 * I really miss you! I wish you were here, so I could talk to you, and rant and bitch to you. But mostly, I wish you were here, so I could stop missing you. It doesn't feel real without you. Oh well, I hope you have a great day. * Friday, November 7 * The retreat was great. Thank you so much, my friends, for the wonderful friendship-affirmation you have done for me. I love you all so so much. Thank you for sparing the time and energy to write to me so beautifully. You reminded me that I can get past whatever life throws at me. You all are the reason for my current mood. Good night, y'all. * Tuesday, November 4 * I've stopped writing palancas, because I wanted to blog.
I was looking through some of the ones I received last year, and I suddenly felt this overpowering sense of nostalgia. I really miss my friends. Why is it that now I feel as if I don't manage my time well enough to keep room for my friends? Why now, when I'm supposed to have gotten the hang of it all? I really really miss people - people whom I see almost everyday, people whom I used to be able to talk to and hug and exchange stories with, people who still mean a lot to me. Gawd... I really miss being with them and laughing with them, making up inside jokes and exchanging the latest cheese about everyone else. I miss totally belonging in my class. I miss talking about things that extend past the four walls of my school. I'm sick of talking about the stupid prom, our dream date, or the latest CL test. I miss the days when we would talk about what it would be like if we ran our own country, or if we were all super rich and visited each other in our own private plane... I'm digressing. Haay... I guess I just miss having a lot less to worry about.
Good night all. I have to write five more palancas. I think I've accomplished almost everything I need for the retreat on Thursday. I just have to finish writing palancas and pack. Oh, and maybe make an Oreo cheesecake. Otherwise, it can wait until after the retreat. I feel so tired. I don't know why. I kinda wish the break were longer.
Anyway, I just finished writing the most honest and most revealing paper I've ever written. Gosh, it took a lot out of me. I feel wide open right now. Like someone just forced a hole into my heart, and now everyone can see into it. I'm still reeling, I guess. I'm scared of showing it to anyone else.
I went to Tita Lulu's to print it out. I just got back, actually. I heard John play the guitar. He was using his electric one. You could hear him playing from outside the house. Wow. Wala lang... Ang galing pala ng pinsan ko. Hehe. I want to hear them play na tuloy. Hehe. Wannabe-fan ako... Ampathetic. Oh well, bagong band! Hehe.
Retreat stuff beckons. I'll see you guys on Friday afternoon. * Monday, November 3 * Weh... It's the last day of the break, and I still have a ton of stuff to do by tomorrow. *sighs*
Will blog again later... Forgot what I was supposed to say. * Sunday, November 2 * Eurgh... It still looks awful. I'll get around to fixing it later... Not now. Am feeling way too lazy. At least it's a change, right? Nice, and BRIGHT, and summer-y... Hehe, and NOT blue. Now people can't tell me that I'm way too attached to my blue. Anyway... Survey from Friendster.
1. Have you ever been in love?
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