* the bright one *

she is a daughter of cassiopeia. her home is among the stars, high above reality. she's trying to be good, trying to accept that change is as constant as she is, trying to succeed. she's trying. a star playing connect-the-dots with everything around her, wish upon her as she streaks across the sky - she'll do anything to give you happiness, because she doesn't know how to start pursuing her own. she pulsates with light, if only she weren't blinded.

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* Sunday, August 29 *

Sige, blog uli tayo.

Hm... I haven't been blogging lately, because blogging means putting down thoughts, and I haven't had that many notable thoughts lately. I haven't really been using my brain kasi. :p Tamad kasi.

So what have I been doing with myself lately?

Nothing much.

Gaining weight. ;p

I need to do something else...

Golly, I actually want to be productive right now. It's a miracle!


making your wish come true at 29.8.04

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* Saturday, August 28 *

Haaay... Nakapagblog na rin ako.

Dami nang nangyari nagbago in between this entry and my last one, pero nakakatamad isulat ang lahat.

Hindi pa rin magaling ang mata ko, pero malapit na. :) Only the corners of my eyes are red. :) Asar lang, kasi nahawa si Tommy. :( Guilty ako. Mahal na mahal ko sya eh!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PARENG BINGO, DARYL, AND KUYA RAMON!!!


making your wish come true at 28.8.04

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* Friday, August 20 *

Salamisim: Sa Agwat Ng Bawat Agwat
ni: G. Sonny B. Santiago

Tinuruan Mo kaming lumikha
Bakit ngayo'y nagwawasak, pumupunit ng kahapon?
Nagtitilad ng mga pangarap
Nag-iipon ng takot at alinlangan
Nangangambang sumabog!
Sumambulat sa harapan!
Ang likha ng mga litong isipan
Ang bakas ng gulanit ng guniguni

Ang dagundong ng tibok
Ang karerahan ng mainit na dugong
dumadaloy sa bawat ugat ng pagkatao
Bakit unti-unting nalulugmok?
Hindi makausad sa masalimuot na katotohanan?

Madilim... Madilim... Madilim...

May agwat pa ba sa pagitan ng bawat agwat?
Upang huminga.
Upang mag-inat
Upang hanapin sa bawat agwat
ang nawawalang piraso ng nakaraan,
ng ngayon at ng hinaharap.

Mabilis na lumipad and aking ulirat
sa walang hanggang balintataw
ng mga adhika, at pangitain.
Pangitaing kumukutkot sa pag-iisa
sa paghahanap ng nais makita
sa pagdama ng unti-unting pagkalugmok

Dahan-dahan
Unti-unti
Hanggang sa magkagulo, magkahalu-halo
ang pangamba,
ang takot,
ang panginginig.
Ang bunga ng walang katapusang pagsasalimbayan
ng kung anu-ano, ng kung sinu-sino

nakalilito
nakahihilo
nakaririmarim sa katotohanang
sumisigid sa kalamnan.

Paano ba ang mag-isa?
Paano ba ang mag-isip?
Simbilis ba ito ng pagsubok,
ng pagguho, ng pagpapagupo,
Simbilis ba ito ng paulit-ulit na paghihingalo?

Mali man o tama
Tama man o mali
Darating ang sandaling may liwanag sa maglalagos sa bawat agwat na umiiral.
May malamig na hingngang madarama sa pagod na nakaraan
May bulong na aalingawngaw
Bulong na unti-unting magiging tinig
Lumalakas, lumulubog,
Sumisisid kasabay ng pag-agos ng hiningang naghahabol
Sa matuling pagbalikwas ng noon at ngayon
Noong kinakalimutan, naisantabi
At ngayong hinahangad.

Matagpuan ang hiblang pupuno
Sa agwat ng bawat agwat
Sa takot ng bawat takot
Sa pangamba ng bawat pangamba
Sa tanong ng bawat tanong
Sa hakbang ng bawat hakbang.

Upang sa pagitan ng pag-aalinlangan at takot - katahimikan
Upang sa pagitan ng lungkot at lumbay - ligaya
Upang sa pagitan ng dilim at rimarim - pag-asa

Upang sa pagitan ng isipan at damdamin - pag-ibig

Mananatili ang agwat sa bawat nilikhang pagitan
Upang makahinga
Upang maramdamang kailangang punan
Ang pag-iisa
Ang pagsusumamong maging ganap
Maging maligaya.


making your wish come true at 20.8.04

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Nakahahawa ata ang kalabuan niya.

Went to the LnK Execomm Evaluation Meeting today. Saw people whom I really missed. It was fun at first, pero dahan-dahan nag-moodswing ako. Sana di mashado nahalata. Nakakahiya naman.

So heto na naman ako. Malaboh. At hindi masaya.

Weh.


making your wish come true at 20.8.04

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* Sunday, August 15 *

Lookie:

Me with some of the people I love most.


making your wish come true at 15.8.04

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* Saturday, August 14 *

Feeling: tired, but happy
Latest indulgence: lots of food!
I want: to find the damn USB cable for my digicam. (Lord, please help.)
Craving: ice cream
Obsessed with: the barkada jacket
Last Movie Seen: Sylvia
Song I'm Singing: Accidentally In Love - Counting Crows / I Will Remember You - Sarah McLachlan
Current Project: the search for the missing USB cable
Angel of the Day: the barkada.

I stopped in my search for the missing USB cable to blog. Obviously.

Going through all my stuff, I've found a lot of things I've been looking for for the past couple of months, but not the one thing that I really am looking for now. For example: the caps that I've been wanting to wear, the bags that I've been needing (including one that would have gone wonderfully with my outfit today), a camera case, and lots of nice paper bags. But I guess one of the greatest things I rediscovered in my search was my "official" wallet. Looking through the photos, the souvenirs, the notes reminded me of how wonderful my friends are and how much I love them. Wala lang. No matter how pissed I was with my mom, it doesn't matter anymore. Because I know that outside this house there are people who understand, and that makes things okay. Mahal ko mga kaibigan ko. Mahal kasi nila ako.

Anyway, parting shot: bwiset ang ibang mga tao - kung kailan mahal mo sila, kailan mo rin malalaman na nagpapaka-plastic din lang pala. Bastos. Sayang lang. Pweh.


making your wish come true at 14.8.04

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* Saturday, August 7 *

Yesterday was a fun day. :) Mica's presentation rocked! (Dapat lang noh, Mics deserves a great presentation. She's like the greatest SO! ;p) Super astig nung Powerpoint presentation na ginawa ng sister nya. It had Flash pa and everything. Ang cool nung slide barkada namin, with the solo pictures of us side by side. Pero nakakahiya yung pic ko. Golly, of all the pictures to be flashed in front of the entire SO unit and the rest of our friends, it had to be the "Yes you!" pic of mine where I look like a boy. It's this one to be precise:


I like this picture of me to be honest. But golly, it was so embarrassing when it was projected and BLINKING. Ang yabang talaga! XDD

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY, MICA!!!
Love you, dear!


making your wish come true at 7.8.04

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* Thursday, August 5 *

Feeling: bored
Latest indulgence: eating too much food AGAIN
I want: money
Craving: Strawberry or Peach Ice Monster
Obsessed with: sadly nothing
Song I'm Singing: Broken - Seether feat. Amy Lee
Current Project: supposedly practicing for Music practicals
Angel of the Day: Ach and Mindy, because Math class was funny

Golly... I don't think I've ever been this bored with school in my entire life. Which is odd - because you'd think that in my senior year I'd be making the most effort to get the highest grades I can. But I'm not.

Wala lang talaga akong gana. Di naman sa ayaw kong makatanggap ng mataas na marka, tinatamad lang talaga ako. Habang lahat ng tao sa paligid ko ay halos himatayin na sa stress, ako'y nakatanga lang dito. Kahit na kailangan ko ring ipasa yung mga ipinapasa nila. Kahit na ayokong bumagsak. Parang di pa rin ako makagalaw. At habang ginagawa ko na ang kailangan kong gawin ay halos makatulog ako sa gitna ng aking ginagawa. Weh...

I'm just so awfully bored. I'm not interested in learning any of the things they're teaching. So what do I do? I eat.

Take today's hour-and-a-half math class for example. Math is my current favorite subject, simply because we're allowed to eat in class. The only thing on today's agenda was the return of Session 2 Evaluation, its review and thirty minutes of IW. After getting back my test, I proceeded to freeload off people for food, getting cornick from Carla and Whoppers from Ericka. Not satisfied, I went out to get my lunchbox and jug. I brought out my rice and viand with Janna and Gela, snickering beside me. I went on to devour half my lunch. Of course after that, I craved something sweet. So I trekked all the way to the other end of the room (I sit in the far left corner at the back of the room - I went to the far right corner in front.), going to Carla and Ach for candy. Malamang they didn't have, so I went over to Mindy, hoping that she did have candy. Instead we ended up talking for a good while with me sitting on the floor, leaning on the wall near our front door, until we realized that Ms Salazar was looking for me pala to give my answer for the last question in the test. Sina Ericka covered up for me na lang, saying I was probably in the bathroom. (Shit, buti na lang I got high in that last test, so di ako kailangan pansinin ni Ms Salazar. XDD) Of course, after that I had to stand up and go back to my seat. Funny nga eh, I seemed to just pop out of nowhere. XDD Tawa ng tawa sina Mindy, Carla, at Ach. XDD

Grabe... The things I do for food!

Tulad ngayon, I ate around three peanut butter and honey sandwiches, tapos I just finished eating a small plate of Italian sausage ziti. Haaay...

Naging buhay ko na talaga ang pagkain. -_-;;;


making your wish come true at 5.8.04

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* Tuesday, August 3 *

Today was more interesting than usual.

I finally switched places with Kat. Hallelujah! Now I sit in the very last row, near the fire exit. XDD Coolness. Finally, some stimulation! I feel more stupid sitting in the bank, because it's more difficult to keep up, but at least now I can breathe! ;p Mas may nagagawa ako sa likod, kaysa noon sa harap katabi si... Let's not go there na.

Anyway, in THE, we watched these two films on abortion today - this funny nineties-era one, and this other one called The Hard Truth. Don't laugh at the title of the second film. Lame it may be, it was pretty darned accurate. I couldn't bear to watch it. Shyet. That's how scary it was. After a little disclaimer by this businessman-looking guy, the movie goes on to begin with a pair of TONGS going in and out of a woman's birth canal. Right then, I knew I wouldn't be able to bear watching it. I was probably the first person in class who conceded to weakness, but I don't care. The few times I chose to peek out of the filler I was using to cover my vision, the scenes were enough to make me go back into hiding. My golly. I was shaken. There were fetuses that were burnt. There were dismembered body parts. There were silent screams. There was EVIL.

Plus there was this freaky background song with the words "The curse..." repeating over and over again in the chorus, so even though I wasn't watching the background music and the expressions on my classmates faces told me that I really didn't want to see what was onscreen.

Lordie... Lord, please, please protect me from the situations that would ever present that as a choice.


making your wish come true at 3.8.04

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