Was supposed to go home at two o'clock, but ended up getting picked up at four. It's alright though. I ended up hanging out with Peep until I had to go home. Felt really sleepy all day though. Haaay... I don't think my sleeping pattern's ever going to right itself. I'll forever wake up at some odd hour before I really have to wake up. Drat it.

Speaking of sleep, I've been having really weird dreams lately. I think this not-thinking business has a lot to do with it. Instead of processing everything properly, and putting it in it's right place in my brain, everything bleeds into my subconscious producing some of the most disturbing dreams yet.

For example, last week we talked about giving birth in THE class and I was reading "Eleven Minutes." So I dreamt about giving birth to a baby smaller than my palm in a Brazilian setting. I'm not going into the details na, because I'm still confused over the actual details and more than some of them are a little disturbing. Last night I dreamt about my retreat, except it wasn't with my class. Probably because yesterday, Lester told me his retreat was tomorrow. Basta... the weird-ass dreams aren't helping me in getting enough rest.

Anyway, I've been pretty happy already as of late. :) Now if only I could off my butt and start really working... *sighs* Hehe. *grins* I guess you just can't have it all. :D I still have to write _ten_ write-ups, on top of all the other schoolwork I have to do, if I haven't mentioned that a million times already. But I have yet to start on a single one. Then again, it's not like I have all the stuff I need yet, do I? ;p (Excuses, excuses - I could come up with them forever...) Oh well... Hopefully I can get it all together by the time we need them.

Speaking of yearbook, today was a rather productive day. We made categories for the batch awards. :) Haha, I have two kabarkadas (actually three - if you count... :D) nominated for some awards. I got nominated for two - the Makata Award (*cue puking sound here*) and the Bangag Queen Award. Hehe, I wouldn't mind getting the Bangag Queen Award. I look sabog enough as it is most of the time. Haha.

Oh... Speaking of looking like something, I already have a couple of ideas for my creative shot for the yearbook, but am not wholly satisfied. Lester suggested I make thought/speech bubbles, which is a cool idea, but I'm not yet entirely sure that's what I want to do. I don't want to dress up as a boy though. Mashado nang overdone yun for me. If you have any ideas, I'm open to them. I want the creative shot to look cool, but still be ME. I don't want to wear my prom dress for it though. Not unless it has something to do with some unique concept. Guys, please help me out. :D

In other news, the dilemma on my mind has recently been the college one. Bigla na lang I'm trying to decide between UP and Ateneo. I know it's kind of presumptuous of me, when I haven't even taken the ACET yet... But still. Sannds and Trins have been telling me that Ateneo isn't what I'm afraid it'll be. And as most of you know, going to Ateneo has been my dream ever since I was in Grade 7. I want to join so many orgs in Ateneo, and I've been preparing for it for most of high school. My list of accomplishments and extra-curricular activities are kinda tailored for admission into Ateneo. But then lately, so many people have been telling me that I'd do well in UP. To be honest, I can imagine myself more in UP than in Ateneo. But I'm scared that I won't do well enough there. There's so much freedom. That's what's so enticing and frightening at the same time. Then again, I have a feeling my dad's going to hit the roof when I tell him I want to study in UP. He gets mad enough as it is when I even mention that the school interests me. He'd rather see me in UST than in UP, and we all know I'd rather go to La Salle than to UST.

Ewan.

I think I should just focus on getting into Ateneo first and hoping that I got into UP. That way when I make up my mind I know where to go. I need to get into both. It would be easy to just pray that I'll only get into one, but I know not getting into Ateneo will kill me - whether or not I decide to go there, I still want to be able to decide. Haay. Please just pray for me, that I'll get off my butt and study for the ACET, so I can get into the course I WANT (understatement - the course I've been dreamin about for the past four years).

Dammit, and I thought I was all set.