* wish upon the star *

making your wish come true at 18.10.05

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* Monday, October 17 *

accidentally you say her name

I hatehatehate being jealous.

But it's second nature to me to be that way already. :(

GRRRR...

I get this (ir)rational urge to punch someone - good and solid - right between their eager and assuming eyes.

I hate how the world opens up opportunities for my paranoia (or is it my intuition?) to slip in between the cracks and build on my insecurities.

I hate how everything becomes open-ended for interpretation, how what could possibly the simplest, most random, song lyrics can mean everything and nothing at the same time to two different people when used by just one person.

Just...

making your wish come true at 17.10.05

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* Tuesday, October 4 *

Okay, ignore that last entry. I'm sorry if it was so.. psychotic.

I'm just really scared now.

Please pray for me na lang.

making your wish come true at 4.10.05

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* Monday, October 3 *

Remember how I said I wouldn't get hurt?

Guess what?

I did get hurt.

Remember how I said that if that happened, I'd just laugh it off and return the favor?

Guess what?

It happened.

..And I cried instead of returning the favor.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Foreshadowing is still my least favorite literary device. Probably because no matter how blatant it is, I can't interpret the fucking foreshadowing clues until it's too late. Stupidstupidstupid. So much for being psychic, ne?

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

I just realized it doesn't matter what my IQ is - 15 or 68 or 150 - I'm still a fucking retard.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

And the most bloody FANTASTIC thing of all???

I can't blame anyone but myself. *insertthehugestfuckingsmilepossible*

WOOHOO!!! Party na 'to!!! GO CHRISTA! HURRAY FOR YOUR IDIOCY!!!

MAGLASIIIING NA TAYOOOOOO!!! WHO HAS TO FUCKING WAIT FOR OKTOBERFEST? I FUCKING WON'T!!!

WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

making your wish come true at 3.10.05

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* Sunday, October 2 *

Timing slays me. It really does.

*sigh*

You are far, when I could've been your star

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I don't want to talk about that. Have you noticed that I don't care?

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Gearing up for the stressful week ahead!

making your wish come true at 2.10.05

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* Saturday, October 1 *

Nabanggit ko na ba na madali ako magselos?

Alam nyo ba na sobrang possessive ako?

Well, wala lang. Naisip ko lang na dapat ninyong malaman.

making your wish come true at 1.10.05

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